I think I am safe to say we all have the same journals we are reading and from what I can tell we are all in sync with eachothers minds and hearts 🙂
I am going to ask you a deep question right now and I would like to have everyones opinion of what I am going to write here.
Remember when I was in Egypt I was reading Dr Phils book, "SELF MATTERS"?
Well this book said that you must do what makes YOU happy and not just do things for others or what makes them happy.
I am a bit confused or maybe I am not understanding it correctly.
Part of my timeing for coming back to USA was for work since I work in an INN and the busy season is now here I came back in MAY.
My nephews graduation is in June < from college> and he is the first in the family to complete college and it's a big deal believe me 🙂
I am going to Maryland for this and also the Cirque Del Sole' spelling might be off a bit but we are all going to this show after his graduation like to celebrate his accomplishments with his friends as well and my 2 sisters and myself.
I put in for vacation from work < not paid vac> for June 3 to the 14 due to my older sister who always throws a wrench into the works of things to drive her back to North Carolina.
I just learned nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww her ride canceled and she has been MIA now with no repsonse in if she is going.
My nephew was so happy to learn his 2 aunts and his mother would be all together for the first time in years and now she does this to all of us, leaving us in limbo.
Then I find out my sister whom I am living with right now wanted to go to NC anyway to find out about the location SHE MIGHT MOVE TO and wanted me to attend the ride along putting her in debt and also she gets paid vacation time where as I don't.
I don't want her to drive to NC alone and yet I don't want to lose work as they have to hire someone to fill in for me and this person will be on the schedule when I get back and will cut into my hours and will make me lose more money in the long run and not having a car I will be stuck with less work and no way to buy a car.
I know I am rambling on but what I need to know is …….. do I go to NC to help my sister even tho I don't want to or do I just go to MD for my nephew and then come back and go back to work???
I don't want to be selfish even tho I think my sister the one I am living with IS TOWARDS ME .. She knew for months she was planning on going to NC to scout out a town to move to and only laid it on me LAST NIGHT.
I am tried of being used and abused due to the situation I am in … the mercy of others.
Sorry to sound off and not being my old gentle soul.
I am asking for your opinions good or bad.
Thank you all ,